Random Musings


This Week I Am…

Kirsty Logan - The Gracekeepers

Kirsty Logan – The Gracekeepers

This week I am:

watching Haider, which has one of my all-time favourite jodis: Vishal Bhardwaj and Shahid Kapoor ;

golluming over colourful chevron patterned washi tape;

treating myself to bucketfuls of hot, sweet, milky masala chai: Celestial Seasonings Chai Tea India Spice with plenty of coconut-almond milk;

eating 95% chocolate and candied ginger (divine combo!);

reading The Gracekeepers by Kirsty Logan — quite possibly the prettiest book cover of the year!;

doodling with a white gel pen on the cover of sand coloured Moleskine Cahier journals;

sewing a dragon (actually, now sewing yet — I’m still only cutting the fabric…);

looking forward to celebrating midsummer in about a week’s time;

knitting a pair of socks — lace and yummy hand dyed yarn;

sleeping, so much;

craving homemade sourdough bread with cheese and alfalfa sprouts;

sadly missing out on yet another one of my best friends’ 40th b’day celebrations (because I’m way too ill to leave the bed/sofa);

experimenting in my art journal, having fun with hand lettering and a Japanese fude pen on inky (Golden High Flow acrylic paint) backgrounds;


The format of this post is inspired by a post my favourite author Maggie O’Farrell made a while back.


This Week I Am…

Fisher Space Pen Bullet Fuchsia Flurry

Fisher Space Pen Bullet Fuchsia Flurry

This week I am…

golluming over my new pen, a Fisher Space Pen (it can write at any angle, even upside down = perfect for writing while lying down!);

drinking homemade carrot juice with chlorella, wheatgrass, lime and ginger;

reading and enjoying The Darkest Part of the Forest by Holly Black;

watching the very last season of the absolutely brilliant tv-series White Collar (love Love LOVE! ) and crushing on Neal Caffrey (obvs!);

drawing polar bears;

wearing starry night sky-coloured nail polish, and rosewood mala bracelets;

feeling immensely grateful for the new sense of relief and freedom in my life, since the court ruled in my favour a couple of months back (HURRAH!!);

sewing saddle-stitched inserts out of black drawing paper (and bright cyan coloured thread!) for my Traveler’s Journal, to doodle in with gel pens.


What about you?


5 Things

Moomin paper clip

5 things that are making me feel very happy right now:

» White Collar (tv-series)
» Nag Champa incense sticks
» Payne’s Gray (colour)
» Space/galaxy patterned washi tape
» Moomin paper clips



This Week I Am…


This week I am:

(re)listening to the recordings from Adyashanti’s study course, that I took part in last month (absolutely brilliant!);

eating red bell peppers and crackers/savoury biscuits;

reading the vampire novel Sunshine by Robin McKinley, and I’m really enjoying it;

(re)watching the tv-series Legend of the Seeker, which definitely holds up to lots and lots of rewatches (love, Love, LOVE!);

looking forward to Maggie Stiefvater’s novel Sinner (to be released 1 July 2014), a stand-alone sequel to the Shiver trilogy;

wishing this bloody legal process would be over already, and that they will decide in my favour;

contemplating what it’s like to open up and staying open while the body is shutting down;

learning how to hand dye self striping sock yarn (yay! so much fun!);

knitting a pair of self striping socks in 4ply/fingering weight yarn;

golluming over my new camera! :) what a wonderful, fabulous, amazing b’day pressie!;

drinking masala chai and vanilla matcha latte.



This Week I Am…

Shiver, Groovy Shawl in handdyed Madelinetosh Merino DK

Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater, and a Groovy shawl

This week I am:

listening to the absolutely brilliant Leap of Faith talks by Adyashanti;

wondering what my next new yarn related exploration might be… (knitting with camel fibre yarn, perhaps?);

re-reading Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater (after abandoning Lev Grossman’s The Magicians three-fourths through, because the Fillory stuff bored the socks off me…);

watching this week’s new episodes of The Vampire Diaries and The Originals;

already looking forward to next week’s new episodes of The Vampire Diaries and The Originals;

wishing for good health, for myself and all my loved ones;

knitting a charcoal coloured Groovy shawl in Madelinetosh Tosh Merino DK, hand dyed by me;

spinning a 2-ply Malabrigo Nube (100% superwash merino) DK weight yarn on my Turkish spindle, for the Yarnraising New-To-You Spinalong, Malabrigo Stockpile and Knit Girllls Halloween Craft Along;

enjoying the full moon;

contemplating something wonderful that I once heard Rupert Spira say: “suffering is an optical illusion”;

celebrating Maa winning the lottery;

drinking bucketfuls of masala chai;



This Week I Am…

Heavenly Lakrits

This week I am:

reading City of Bones by Cassandra Clare, because I want to read the book before I watch the film, and I want to watch the film only because of Aidan Turner (aka Mitchell from Being Human UK, one of my all-time favourite vampires!);

watching the television miniseries Top of the Lake;

looking forward to the release of the book The Dream Thieves by Maggie Stiefvater (part 2 of The Raven Cycle) on 17 Sept;

drinking hot chocolate with marshmallows and fresh chili from my parents’ garden;

golluming over my Heavenly Lakrits tin (perfect for stitch markers, darning needles and seed beads!);

sleeping, so much;


The format of this post is inspired by a post my favourite author Maggie O’Farrell made a while back.


This Week I Am…

Still Light Tunic

This week I am:

knitting the slightly modified neckline of what will become a Still Light Tunic, a design that isn’t very flattering on a body type like mine, but I absolutely love wearing tunics like this so I don’t mind;

treating myself to a few precious moments of sufi qawwalis, mostly by Abida Parveen (…main bhi ho gayi laal!);

watching Smallville, Season 7;

feeling disappointed, sad and let down because the people who were supposed to install a new toilet bowl and fix the drains for me a few weeks ago never showed up, and the preparations I made drained my energy exceedingly, all in vain;

golluming over a Lindt Creation Coulis de Chocolat 70% cacao (a super delicious chocolate bar!);


This Week I Am…

Stripey Noro Socks

Stripey Noro socks

This week I am:

knitting away on my stripey Noro socks, they only need to have the ends woven in now and then they are done (yay!);

experimenting with a new kind of protein & superfood shake (SunWarrior protein powder, Udo’s Choice OptiGreen, almond milk, rose-hip, cacao, Renée Voltaire Smoothie Mix, dates, maca and Udo’s Choice);

watching Smallville, season 6;

sleeping, so much;

crushing on Ewan McGregor (as always..!);

reading The Autistic Brain by Temple Grandin, which has some really interesting bits about brain damage, mitochondria, neurological issues and sensory oversensitivity etc, that are very relevant to ME (myalgic encephalomyelitis) as well;

listening to To Live The Truth by Adyashanti;

sorely missing the people I used to think were my friends, fiercely wishing they still wanted to have me in their lives despite the limitations the illness is putting on my social life, and the fact that we aren’t able to meet in person for now, hotly wishing they loved reading and writing emails and/or text messages so we could still stay in touch and connect even though I’m not always able to reply;

feeling grateful, immensely so, for the few friends who are still keeping in touch;

looking forward to having a new toilet bowl installed next week (massive thanks to my kind, generous parents!), because the flushing mechanism in my current one has been broken for several years now;

celebrating that I won a gorgeous necklace by Peggy Li in a giveaway on the web earlier this week (I’m super excited and very, very happy!);

daydreaming of midnight skinny-dipping in glassy, velvety forest lakes, under the midnight sun;

golluming over a new skein of The Knitting Goddess Sparklynne Laceweight in Raspberry, fantasising about possible designs to knit;

contemplating boundlessness in the context of “maya stays, illusion goes”, and the freedom in being able to move freely between all perspectives – neither resisting the states that appear to be more contracted or limited, nor grasping at the more spacious ones.


I really enjoy writing these posts :) Since I’m spending every day stuck here on my sofa, the weeks and months seem to have a tendency to sort of blur together, creating an illusion of sameness. Simply making these little notes has been helpful in highlighting a slightly different perspective on things, reaffirming that although I spend most of my time simply resting, doing absolutely nothing, the moments in between are actually filled with plenty of wonderful, diverse and manifold things :)


This Week I Am…

Stripey Noro Socks

This week I am:

listening to the latest episode of the Vampire Hype Podcast;

trying to figure out how to draw the geometric shapes I’m imagining for my mandala painting;

reading the graphic novel Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Season 9;

watching reruns of Long Way Round with Ewan McGregor and Charley Boorman (absolutely brilliant, holds up to infinite rewatches!);

knitting snuggly stripey Noro socks, and swatches for a cardi/hoodie in Malabrigo Worsted;

daydreaming about backpacking in Scotland (again);

contemplating trust: rewarded, misplaced and withheld;

looking forward to the postie hopefully bringing me the Spinner’s Book of Yarn Designs soon;

enjoying many mugfuls of hot, sweet, milky masala chai.


This Week I Am…

Vampire Diaries, chai & knitting

This week I am:

listening to the silence;

observing my seemingly uncurbable desire to modify almost all of my knitting projects into something that is even prettier than the original design, and how this unintentionally tends to make what was intended to be relaxing and grounding into something that is challenging, complicated and soo much fun! but sadly also way too much for my brain to handle;

wondering what RSS reader to use now that Google Reader soon disappears (maybe Feedly?);

wearing the wearable equivalent of comfort food: cosy hand knitted shawls, snuggly warm hand knitted woolen socks, and a warm cardi over colourful indian kurtas/tunics;

eating cucumber salad with wasabi nuts, and oven baked blueberry pancakes (not together);

reading the graphic novel ‘American Vampire’ by Scott Snyder, Stephen King and Rafael Albuquerque for our vampire book group, and ‘Svulten’ by Hannele Mikaela Taivassalo (vampires in Helsinki!) just for fun;

watching Smallville season 4 and Being Human (US) season 3, both for the first time, and on Friday the season finale of The Vampire Diaries season 4;

knitting a snuggly pair of stripey and colourful socks in gorgeous Noro Silk Garden yarn;

contemplating my conditioned reactions and responses to the hugely increased bodily suffering and grief caused by the most recent severe overexertion due to the ongoing legal appeals process (for sickness benefit);

looking forward to Radio Adyashanti tonight, and the postie hopefully bringing me the art supplies that I ordered so I can start painting a really big and colourful mandala to put on my living room wall;

being grateful for my parents’ generosity and willingness to help;

wishing myself healing and fearlessness, and boundless happiness for all beings.


The format of this post is inspired by a post my favourite author Maggie O’Farrell made a while back. I read her new novel Instructions for a Heatwave a few weeks ago and it was amazing, just like all her previous ones :)

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